Sunday, June 27, 2004
tml school reopen liao!! goodness mee. so not prepareedd. i tink i wasted my june holis. ahhh. first week still very enthu abt the three blogs a dayy method. but slowlyy. slack. slack. till last week. which is this week. went out EVERYDAY! sinful. so sinful. hai. nvm. i am determine to jiayouu. when school reopen. jus hope tt the determination wont die off. in fact. mus last long longg. for five months lehh. cannn dieee. motivationn. wheere isitt. bahhh. i am worried tt i wont do well. butt i am not doin anithing to easee the fearr. study. study. study.
ohh. and my coach saee he can see from the way i walk. i am goin thru a rough patch in life. not very serious. but still. leadin an unhappy life. haa. part of me noe that it's true. but part of mee doesnt wan to belief. i wan to be okayy. it's scaryy. and it sort of freaked me outt that he is seeing me thru.. i hate it when pple see thru me. i hate it when they noe wad i am feelin and i dont. i dont like to be transparent with m feelings. but i hate to pretend i am feelin orite.
haa. actualli i am okay. jus a bit weird weirdd. quite happy. but the problem is i dont even noe if i am truely happy myselff. how ironic can it bee. =\


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MYSELF!
Felicia
Victoria-JC
Seventeen-Plus
Eighteen-October
Feli_cia36@hotmail.com
LOVES!
Volleyball
Fei Fei
Family
Xiao Ming
Years in Cedar
Mahjong Gang
Being Loved
WINNING(money and competitions)
EAT!

HATES!
Liars
Being Unwanted
To Lose
Having Regrets
Nightmares
all the IF ONLYs